THE BAD WIFE...
SHE KNEW WHAT SHE DID...SHE KNEW HE KNEW THAT SHE HAD NOT BEEN THERE WHEN SHE COULD HAVE...SHE KNEW SHE HAD GONE BEYOND UNAVAILABILITY, WITHDRAWAL, FLIGHT AND THE SAFENESS OF 'YIN'...THE 'YIN' SPACE OF CHARGED DISTANCING AND WATCHING...THE 'YIN' SPACE OF GREAT HUNGER IN 'WANTING TO BE WANTED' AND SOMEHOW OVERTHROWING THE ECHOES OF THE INNER GATE OF DEATH DEEP IN THE PERINEUM...THE DEADENED AND WITHHELD PLACE OF RAGE AGAINST THE BETRAYALS THAT HAD BEEN DONE TO HER AND THE BETRAYALS OF HER REALNESS SHE DID IN MEDIATIONS AND FILTRATIONS TO 'GET NEEDS MET'...
SHE KNEW WHAT SHE DID...
IN THE SHADOWS...THE WOMAN IN THE DARK ROOM WAITED IN THE RHYTHMS OF DAYLIGHT AND USED WHATEVER TO FOSTER ORBITS OF RELATIONS THAT PROVIDED 'INTENSITY-DENSITY' MEANS OF COUNTERING THE DEADNESS OF THE DEEP 'YIN'...FOR IT WAS NOT THE 'STILLNESS' OF SPIRIT AND HEALTH BUT THE CONTROL OF RESONANCE AND RELATIONS...
IT WAS POWER GREATER THAN LOVE AS SHE STRUGGLED TO OVERCOME ROOT FEELINGS OF VIOLENCE AND BETRAYALS THAT TOLD HER SHE WOULD NEVER BE LOVED ENOUGH...SHE ACHED FOR THE LOVE YET INCREASINGLY DISCOVERED THE NECESSITY OF BUILDING NEW ILLUSIONS TO MEDIATE THE 'MYTHOLOGY' OF HER FAMILY HISTORY AND THE DESTRUCTIVENESS OF THEIR FORTRESSINGS MASKED IN 'BELIEF-FAITH' IDEOLOGY STRUCTURES...
SHE KNEW WHAT SHE DID...
SHE KNEW THE DIFFERENCES IN MANIPULATIVENESS, DISAPPOINTMENTS AND CONTROLS AS BEHAVIORS OF NOT BEING SEEN...NOT HAVING ANYONE MEET HER IN REALISM OF EMOTIONALITY...THE VERSION OF WHO SHE WANTED YOU TO SEE...THE IDEALIZED AS PORTRAYED IN THE IMPRESSION MANAGEMENT OF TIMES ENCOUNTERED AND THE GAP OF REALITY OF THE FULLNESS OF HER STRUGGLES TO BE LOVED AS IS...
THE CONTROL OF OUTCOMES WAS NOT POSSIBLE...
FOR SHE SAW HER WOUNDS AND LACK AND EXPRESSED THEM KNOWING THEIR RECURRENCE AND SOUGHT ACCEPANCE..TO STILL BE LOVED...
AND HE LOVED HER FOR WHO SHE IS YET HE KNEW HE WAS NOT AS SHE ENVISIONED...THE SHARED 'YIN' MAGNETIC FIELD SEXUALITY' AFFORDED OPPORTUNITY IN HEALINGS AND GROWTH YET IT WAS 'YANG' STRENGTH IN FULLNESS AS OPPOSITES THAT SEEMED UNATTAINABLE...FOR RHYTHMS OF YIN TO YIN IN COUNTERING THE 'DEEP DEADNESS OF THE BOTTOM' GATE OF DEATH WAS A SOURCE OF SOMEONE BEING THERE TO SHARE AND MOVE...A 'TEMPORARY CURE' FOR THE LONELINESS AND INCOMPLETED...
REALNESS WAS EVOLVING INTO ENCOUNTER...FOR HIS GROWTH THROUGH HIS DAMAGES MOVED IN YIN DEPTHS WITH A RARENESS TO BECOME THE YANG THAT FEW MEN ACHIEVE...FOR THE 'YANG' OF LIFE FORCE IS DIRECTION AND PROMETHIAN...IT IS ALIVENESS TO STEAM AND INSPIRE AGAINST THE YIN CURRENTS OF MOSTLY WATERS OF UNCONSCIOUSNESS...
IT IS WILL TO ONENESS IN CREATIVE INTEGRITY...HEART CENTERING IN KNOWING WHAT ONE HAS DONE...TO BREATHE THROUGH GUILT, SHAMES AND KINWEB OPPRESSIONS THAT COMPEL DECISIONS TO AVOID EXPOSURE...ACTIONS OF COURAGE BEYOND WEBBED MODES OF REACTIVITY AND THE DANCES OF 'ACCEPTABLE' VERSIONS OF THAT'S WHO SHE IS...
SO SHE INVESTS IN THE LOSSES AS CONSTRUCTIONS IN INERTIA...SHE MOVES IN FAMILIARITY AND SEEKS TO WIN THE THEMES THIS TIME...TO ENDURE IN A DISTANCE AS THE VULNERABILITY FOR REAL KNOWLEDGE AND GROWTH IS NOT YIN BUT THE WILL OF YANG...EXPOSURE, STANDING ON ONE'S OWN...SPEAKING TRUTH TO THOSE WHO WOULD SUPPRESS AND TAKE ADVANTAGE OF 'YIN' SILENCES AND NON CONFLICT/CO0NTRADICTION...
MAKING PEACE IN INNER DEADNESS CLOSE TO THE PERINEUM GATE OF DEATH...BEING IN THE HIDDEN AGENDA AS THE PLATEAU OF 'MASS-OCCUR' WAVES...FOR THE CREATIVE MOVES TO YANG OUT OF 'SILENCE IS DEATH'...COURAGE OF DAATH AND ASSERTIONS OF WILL...RIGHT TO ONE'S LIFE AS ONE'S LIFE...
IT IS GETTING OUT OF THE SELF-RECRIMINATIONS OF THE 'BAD WIFE' AND THE BLACK SHEEP INTO AN ASSERTION OF IDENTITY.........TRUTH OF URGENCY OUT OF FALSE ANGST MEDIATIONS AND OVERLOAD RELEASES...
SHE KNEW WHAT SHE DID...SHE KNEW HE KNEW THAT SHE HAD NOT BEEN THERE WHEN SHE COULD HAVE...SHE KNEW SHE HAD GONE BEYOND UNAVAILABILITY, WITHDRAWAL, FLIGHT AND THE SAFENESS OF 'YIN'...THE 'YIN' SPACE OF CHARGED DISTANCING AND WATCHING...THE 'YIN' SPACE OF GREAT HUNGER IN 'WANTING TO BE WANTED' AND SOMEHOW OVERTHROWING THE ECHOES OF THE INNER GATE OF DEATH DEEP IN THE PERINEUM...THE DEADENED AND WITHHELD PLACE OF RAGE AGAINST THE BETRAYALS THAT HAD BEEN DONE TO HER AND THE BETRAYALS OF HER REALNESS SHE DID IN MEDIATIONS AND FILTRATIONS TO 'GET NEEDS MET'...
SHE KNEW WHAT SHE DID...
IN THE SHADOWS...THE WOMAN IN THE DARK ROOM WAITED IN THE RHYTHMS OF DAYLIGHT AND USED WHATEVER TO FOSTER ORBITS OF RELATIONS THAT PROVIDED 'INTENSITY-DENSITY' MEANS OF COUNTERING THE DEADNESS OF THE DEEP 'YIN'...FOR IT WAS NOT THE 'STILLNESS' OF SPIRIT AND HEALTH BUT THE CONTROL OF RESONANCE AND RELATIONS...
IT WAS POWER GREATER THAN LOVE AS SHE STRUGGLED TO OVERCOME ROOT FEELINGS OF VIOLENCE AND BETRAYALS THAT TOLD HER SHE WOULD NEVER BE LOVED ENOUGH...SHE ACHED FOR THE LOVE YET INCREASINGLY DISCOVERED THE NECESSITY OF BUILDING NEW ILLUSIONS TO MEDIATE THE 'MYTHOLOGY' OF HER FAMILY HISTORY AND THE DESTRUCTIVENESS OF THEIR FORTRESSINGS MASKED IN 'BELIEF-FAITH' IDEOLOGY STRUCTURES...
SHE KNEW WHAT SHE DID...
SHE KNEW THE DIFFERENCES IN MANIPULATIVENESS, DISAPPOINTMENTS AND CONTROLS AS BEHAVIORS OF NOT BEING SEEN...NOT HAVING ANYONE MEET HER IN REALISM OF EMOTIONALITY...THE VERSION OF WHO SHE WANTED YOU TO SEE...THE IDEALIZED AS PORTRAYED IN THE IMPRESSION MANAGEMENT OF TIMES ENCOUNTERED AND THE GAP OF REALITY OF THE FULLNESS OF HER STRUGGLES TO BE LOVED AS IS...
THE CONTROL OF OUTCOMES WAS NOT POSSIBLE...
FOR SHE SAW HER WOUNDS AND LACK AND EXPRESSED THEM KNOWING THEIR RECURRENCE AND SOUGHT ACCEPANCE..TO STILL BE LOVED...
AND HE LOVED HER FOR WHO SHE IS YET HE KNEW HE WAS NOT AS SHE ENVISIONED...THE SHARED 'YIN' MAGNETIC FIELD SEXUALITY' AFFORDED OPPORTUNITY IN HEALINGS AND GROWTH YET IT WAS 'YANG' STRENGTH IN FULLNESS AS OPPOSITES THAT SEEMED UNATTAINABLE...FOR RHYTHMS OF YIN TO YIN IN COUNTERING THE 'DEEP DEADNESS OF THE BOTTOM' GATE OF DEATH WAS A SOURCE OF SOMEONE BEING THERE TO SHARE AND MOVE...A 'TEMPORARY CURE' FOR THE LONELINESS AND INCOMPLETED...
REALNESS WAS EVOLVING INTO ENCOUNTER...FOR HIS GROWTH THROUGH HIS DAMAGES MOVED IN YIN DEPTHS WITH A RARENESS TO BECOME THE YANG THAT FEW MEN ACHIEVE...FOR THE 'YANG' OF LIFE FORCE IS DIRECTION AND PROMETHIAN...IT IS ALIVENESS TO STEAM AND INSPIRE AGAINST THE YIN CURRENTS OF MOSTLY WATERS OF UNCONSCIOUSNESS...
IT IS WILL TO ONENESS IN CREATIVE INTEGRITY...HEART CENTERING IN KNOWING WHAT ONE HAS DONE...TO BREATHE THROUGH GUILT, SHAMES AND KINWEB OPPRESSIONS THAT COMPEL DECISIONS TO AVOID EXPOSURE...ACTIONS OF COURAGE BEYOND WEBBED MODES OF REACTIVITY AND THE DANCES OF 'ACCEPTABLE' VERSIONS OF THAT'S WHO SHE IS...
SO SHE INVESTS IN THE LOSSES AS CONSTRUCTIONS IN INERTIA...SHE MOVES IN FAMILIARITY AND SEEKS TO WIN THE THEMES THIS TIME...TO ENDURE IN A DISTANCE AS THE VULNERABILITY FOR REAL KNOWLEDGE AND GROWTH IS NOT YIN BUT THE WILL OF YANG...EXPOSURE, STANDING ON ONE'S OWN...SPEAKING TRUTH TO THOSE WHO WOULD SUPPRESS AND TAKE ADVANTAGE OF 'YIN' SILENCES AND NON CONFLICT/CO0NTRADICTION...
MAKING PEACE IN INNER DEADNESS CLOSE TO THE PERINEUM GATE OF DEATH...BEING IN THE HIDDEN AGENDA AS THE PLATEAU OF 'MASS-OCCUR' WAVES...FOR THE CREATIVE MOVES TO YANG OUT OF 'SILENCE IS DEATH'...COURAGE OF DAATH AND ASSERTIONS OF WILL...RIGHT TO ONE'S LIFE AS ONE'S LIFE...
IT IS GETTING OUT OF THE SELF-RECRIMINATIONS OF THE 'BAD WIFE' AND THE BLACK SHEEP INTO AN ASSERTION OF IDENTITY.........TRUTH OF URGENCY OUT OF FALSE ANGST MEDIATIONS AND OVERLOAD RELEASES...
